Congratulations! Did a doctor/specialist give you anything to help or did you just take it real, real easy? I have a friend with that who I keep telling to go get help :( but they’re kinda ok since they’re asexual.
I’ve talked about this a fair bit on here before, but new followers may not be aware - I’ve been seeing a physio who specialises in pelvic floor pain for the last year or so. I have to use dilators to acclimatise myself to the sensation of having things of certain sizes in there, and there are also kegel exercises, muscle relaxation techniques etc that I have to employ. It’s been a process and it’s still ongoing but the fact that I was able to do that without difficulty last night is an enormous step for me and I’m really proud/relieved/excited to continue this journey. It is a really terrifying, confusing and lonely thing to go through so I do understand people being hesitant to go get it checked out - it took me almost five years to do that - I hope your friend goes and seeks help if they decide they need it, and I’m always here to chat if they need someone!
I realise how TMI this is but
I had almost completely pain-free penetrative sex last night for the first time in my entire life and I am so so so so so so so relieved.
I took some time to sit in the sun today. It’s been a while since it showed its lovely face. Bare legs and a giant mug of jasmine tea and songs by Paul and John and Elliott and a voice tiny and quiet, so no one else could hear me. This weekend has been emotionally draining and I have realised some things about myself that I really don’t like, which is confronting and devastating to me but that’s how we learn and grow, right? I got super drunk on Friday to forget it and spent all day yesterday in the fetal position and today I felt empty too, but a good dose of sunshine made it all better for a little while. I want to learn to love myself without depending on someone else.
It has been the most fucking exhausting week ever thanks to boys and work both being a headache so here’s my message to the world while I get #yellowgirlwasted at our house party bye
I haven’t written much here lately because honestly, everything is pretty good and for once I don’t feel the need to talk about every single detail of all the things that happen to me. I think I’m pretty close to being properly happy and that’s a cool feeling.
One at a time please, fellas.
My ex refollowed me on Twitter the other day and the guy I am currently seeing followed me today so now I have to be VERY CAREFUL about what I say on there because of those two so pls prepare for this thing to become even more of a toilet dumping ground for my ridiculous inane thoughts I’m so so sorry